Sedikit ini bercerita tapi malas untuk mengambil pena
ataupun buku jurnal. Dan aku berusaha memahami orang lain dan sejujurnya tidak
bisa mungkin pemikiranku dan dia sama sekali tidak sama. Oke mari bercerita
tentang ku saja dan ini perasaan pribadiku dan pendapat orang lain perlu namun
bagiku itu semua bullshit. Hhaahahahha
Punya lingkaran pertemanan tapi itu munafik atau bahasa
kerennya sekarang itu toxic. Hahah ya toxic. And then I am in the middle of it.
But I trying to push myself to survive. Oke I need this circle because I don’t
have place to going but I will repay what they give me but not in my own
friendship. I know they like to help me but I am not feel that.
Sometime I feel like they not recognize me as one of them. Why I talking
like that? Because there are several experiences I have been pass through. For
example they was went to lunch together but not ask me to join with them and I
don’t the event if not one of the give protess and feel like she not one of
them. I know there are problem between them. But me? I am the one of them, I
don’t have problem with them and the I don’t know and make me feel awkward to
be honest. And then the other example is when we went to hangout in the café
they take picture without me and happy with it nd I am the photografer. And
then in the pass I was feel awkward.
And then behavior person can’t be change if not themselves
doing that. One of your person have been talking about that you doing something
because you feeling you superior more then them like me exactly. But I am
trying to admit and survive I will make my dream became true.
You angry to me because of side problem not because I am
doing that. It’s just because I am in front of you and I don’t any power to reply
your sentence.
“Hey, Hey, wake up, this earth always rotate. Remember that.
And one of your bestie have been through her time to make herself balance with
you and you feel like something wrong in your heart right?”
But I am waiting and waiting my time to make my dream come
true and show to you with my hard working I can make my own way. And then this
time is one of way to doing.
Keren kak, Valid banget ceritanya :)
BalasHapus